I have the right to destroy myself -Novel by Kim Young-ha (review)

Here's the first book i read in my reading challenge ,since i plan to read more books by the end of the summer .

It's a novel written by Kim Young-ha and translated to English by Kim Chi-Young .

Here's the summary from goodreads :

I don't encourage murder. I have no interest in one person killing another. I only want to draw out morbid desires, imprisoned deep in the unconscious. This lust, once freed, starts growing. Their imaginations run free, and they soon discover their potential... They are waiting for someone like me. A spectral, nameless narrator haunts the lost and wounded of big-city Seoul, suggesting solace in suicide. Wandering through the bright lights of their high-urban existence, C and K are brothers who fall in love with the same woman - Se-yeon. As their lives intersect, they tear at each other in a struggle to find connection in their fast-paced, atomized world.

I find the cover quite beautiful and captivating and the Title is kind of poetic .

REVIEW :

when I read the summary of the novel, I thought the narrator will present a cold heartless psycho who longs to be recognised as a god ....but against all my expectations it turned out that this novel isn't about that it's more about a side of life we often ignore it's existence or try to do so ,it show another way to view life and death. I read the book in a day and I'll read it again to dive more into the world that young_ha created and presented to us . I found it thrilling and the writing was simply exceptional, it has something poetic and I could detect a ting of cruelty the narrator wanted to convey. to sum it up I loved the book and consider it a fun read ,but it leaves you a bit empty and feeling void ,as if wanting to know more and needing to digest the true meanings hidden between the lines. I will read it again to understand more about the so called C who seems quite a mystery to me, but who excited me with the manner he regards things and people around him , and life and death.